3/5 out.

Oh. For. Fuck’s. Sake.

The head’s still wiggling around! apparently 2/5s engaged. same as last week. really. I can officially remove ‘patient’ from my list of virtues. Mad, mad pants.

Spoke to brother Dan yesterday; he’s incredibly smitten. Little Jaxen (which i thought was Jackson until being corrected very recently) came along at 34 weeks, so his eyes are still really sensitive to light and he’ll be in the hospital nursery until at least Feb 25… i can only imagine how difficult it would be. to have to leave your most precious love and go home. But Dan and Jen are amazingly positive about the whole situation, knowing that ultimately it’s the best thing for the wee one. bless

Listening to lots of Joni Mitchell atm. fills me with whimsy. i love it.

All the people at this party
Theyve got a lot of style
Theyve got stamps of many countries
Theyve got passport smiles
Some are friendly
Some are cutting
Some are watching it from the wings
Some are standing in the centre
Giving to get something

Photo beauty gets attention
Then her eye paints running down
Shes got a rose in her teeth
And a iampshade crown
One minute shes so happy
Then shes crying on someones knee
Saying laughing and crying
You know its the same release

I told you when I met you
I was crazy
Cry for us all beauty
Cry for eddie in the corner
Thinking hes nobody
And jack behind his joker
And stone-cold grace behind her fan
And me in my frightened silence
Thinking I dont understand

I feel like Im sleeping
Can you wake me
You seem to have a broader sensibility
Im just living on nerves and feelings
With a weak and a lazy mind
And coming to peoples parties
Fumbling deaf dumb and blind

I wish I had more sense of humour
Keeping the sadness at bay
Throwing the lightness on these things
Laughing it all away
Laughing it all away
Laughing it all away

x.

~ by burps on January 30, 2007.